familiar woes

Considering how much I say I'm being oppressed by my parents/family I don't think I've ever expanded on it here on this blog =/

So I might as well do it now while I'm on the train to class ==;

Where to begin.....where to begin....Ahh...I think that's a good place to start....Here it is:

My parents are simply chinese parents who expect me to perform well above their expectation and well above any other kid....just like every asian parent out there but there's one vital difference! For huge chunk of my life, we unlike most other asian families have been mostly financially unstable....In other words, not that well off. Things have kinda stabilised now but....for how long?

These financial problems all began when we opened a suit shop in a out-of-the-way street which lacked any business whatsoever....That was also where we as a family lived for a period of 5-7 years....my memories of that place have been somewhat blurred since I've been suppressing some of my own memories but I digress... Anyways, at that point in time we had slightly higher than average income, yumcha lunches on every weekend, dinners at the chinese restaurant nearly every night. Driving around a BMW sedan and generally splurging out on anyone but the kids strangely enough. Yup....we were pretty well off....At the beginning that is...

And this is where my dad's gambling got out of control.....I don't know the details that well as I was only in my single digits...All I remember is waiting for my parents to come home at very late times because well....I was a scared little boy with nothing to interact with but my fat younger brother who slept like a log and my beloved teddy bear which I clutched to my chest at almost every opportunity (I think I still do occasionally....) but yea....Now that I look back on it, I realise what they were doing late at night....why we always went to the local RSL for dinner on wednesdays and why we left our humble abode....all because of my parents' gambling addiction...if I think about it....it was actually both of them no matter how much my mum likes to blame my dad....

So anyways....there began the age of constant quarrels and everylittle thing was judged by the other parent and as a child I obviously understood next to nothing =/ But now....it's just a pain in the ass to remember....no tears but a lot of pent up rage at my parents' stupidity.

So eventually we moved to place where I currently reside, it's a nice place, I've learned all the back streets and have an adequate experience residing here for the past 10 or so years....but we had those bills and debts to pay off...It was a depressing period of time for me....the only time I ever got a toy or game or whatever the fuck I got....was when my dad hit it big on those damned gambling machines....I may seem hypocritical in saying this, but I set my limits when I go gambling so shut up about me!

So where was I? Oh right...my parents and their gambling.....I can't be bothered expanding on that, you get the picture already... So on to other things!!

My parents are constantly berating me for sleeping in on days I really can't be bothered going to class or whatever....I don't mind this but it gets a bit much when your mum brings up random things that have no relevance to me sleeping in. My mum....poor gullible fool...she'll believe anything she hears on her trusted chinese radio station....fuck....Everything she hears from tehre she'll believe. I remember when she said I was on drugs and kept screaming at me for "lying" back when I was 16 years old, now she says I'll get brain cancer from listening to my headphones among other bizarre and unexpected things. How I hate that radio station....if it weren't for society and its rules I would totally destroy that place....along with every chinese capable radio in australia.

So yea....I've lost my line of thought since I put my laptop in my bag....If you haven't guessed by now, I'm actually blogging in class =]

One thing I firmly believe in, I don't think you need a tertiary degree to succeed in business or in life. There are many people who succeed just fine on their own will and determination to succeed, all those guys with ideas who somehow implement them and get epicly rich kill off this idea that you need good grades to make your money etc. So I hate it when my parents keep telling me to study study STUDY!!! I know I need some education, like the essentials for something I wanna do. In my case it's accounting and some management skills but that's about it. I know how important the skills and knowledge are cuz I don't wanna be fucked over by some dickhead accountant so yea, education is necessary but it's not completely vital to succeed. You don't need to be the top of the class to kick the top no-lifer's ass so fuck it. I'll study when I need to and how I want to!!! Fuck my parent's expectations I don't care. I just wanna open up my own event management company as well as my own bar/restaurant so I DON'T NEED TO COME FIRST IN EVERY FUCKING SUBJECT!!! I AIN'T CUT OUT FOR STUDYING!!!!

Nuf said =]